Westin and I decided to take the pressure off of ourselves and "broke up" but everything is the exact same. I don't know when I'll see him next, but I don't feel the same urgency as I did. I was afraid that, if I didn't see him soon, we were going to end up hating each other and breaking up. But we took a two day break, then decided that breaking up would save our relationship. Is that normal? I don't really know. But I know I'm so much happier, and he is too.
Somehow, it feels like we're closer now. We did it to put our friendship first, which was the best idea we've had. But I think having the title made me like dig my nails into him, instead of making me feel more secure. But now I'm just like "Ehh, he can't break my heart if I already knew he wasn't mine for the keeping."
I don't worry about it anymore though. I love him and I'm not worried about it. If it's supposed to work out, it will.
Well, I'm only a few minutes away from Cannon, so when I can blog again, I will.
Xoxo, k
