Bye Bye Birdie

Things have been mildly entertaining in my life as of late. And by mild, I really mean bland... like Russian food bland. Somehow Russian food still manages to be toxic to my body. It's really great how irony occurs organically. I woke up this morning and watched "Bye Bye, Birdie" and it really made me want to live in the 60s, and name my first two girls Roslyn and Maudlin (Rosie and Maud for short).

My favorite dance move from the whole musical.

I also watched My Fair Wedding with David Tuttera and I cried harder than I've ever cried during any ceremony, wedding show, or movie since The Passion. It was the most beautiful and heartfelt exchange of vows I have ever witnessed in my entire life. I wrote down my favorite vow that the bride, Brooke, wrote. She said "I can't believe I'm marrying by best friend! You're my heart and my life. It's always been you. I love you." Even writing those words again now really locks me into how valuable it is to hear that, for someone to say that and mean it. I don't know that I'll ever hear those words spoken to me, but I hope I do one of these days. Jesus placed the desire in my heart to love someone and raise a family. It is simply a matter of waiting for His timing. It's not easy when I see genuine, beautiful, inspiring love that is not mine for the taking. But it's not about me. It never was, and I forget that a lot because I'm the only one that lives in my head (a blessing and a curse). Not to mention the fact that I'm not ready for anything like that right now. It's foolish and unfair to my heart to entertain the idea of love and romance when I am not ready for that.

Once I'm busy in the Air Force, it will be so much easier for me to keep my mind on my real life and less on the non-existent romance. I went to Wal-Mart today and the fake engagement ring seems to be working as a magnet for unattractive and single or older, married men. Like a charm. I seriously just need to start grocery shopping on Monday afternoons because there were no attractive young men there. Besides, who wants to fall in love in Wal-Mart? I thought it was all about doing so in a coffee shop. Thanks a lot, Landon Pigg. Now all of us who don't have a local coffee shop will never find true love. ( You are rather gorgey though, so if you ever stop by O-town, you're more than welcome to come over for a cuppa java at my place.)

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Can I go on a tangent right now? Yes, I can because it's my blog. I was just on Facebook and, I kid you not, three out of the four ads on the right hand side were for weddings. And the fourth one was an ad for 7-11 donuts. Freakin jerks. I am currently not eating any wheat products and it's really difficult. That's pretty much all I ever eat, aside from the occasional clementine orange or apple. I did some research today on why my allergies bother me year-round and it suggested a few different reasons, but the main one that came up over and over was Candida overgrowth. Candida is the specific type of yeast that grows in the body and helps digestion and the pH balance of our mucus membranes. But, when there's a persistent overgrowth, it can be toxic to the body. Diets high in sugar, processed foods, and carbohydrates can lead to a Candida overgrowth. And since I practically live off peanut butter toast and beef Ramen, I figure I should probably change it up temporarily and see if I notice any drastic changes in my energy levels. I'm hoping and praying for the best. I'm just ready to have energy and be able to breathe.

I did my best to fast the internet today, and did a rather poor job of that so I'm going to try my hand at self-control again. If I'm going to cut wheat out of my diet for the rest of my life, I'm going to need to practice as much self-control as possible. I'm doing pretty good so far though. Today for lunch, I had a snack type meal. I had cucumber slices with ranch, Hint of Lime Tostitos and salsa, and apple juice. Then for dinner, I had 1 and a 1/2 deviled eggs and spaghetti squash with garlic and onion spaghetti sauce, spicy chicken, and Parmesan cheese. I was so full after dinner. I was truly amazed. When I was walking out of Wal-Mart, I was thinking "I'm never going to be full again," but squash has already proven that to be false. Bravo, squash. Bravo.